reflection

sleepless, alone

a thought stirs

disembodied

a faceless dread

a nameless fear

blurred and indistinct

finding traction in silence

in solitude

earlier today

i fiddled and twisted the plastic straw

it cracked and split

torn asunder by boredom, by idleness

by a distracted mind

why so destructive?

i peered hard into the darkness

willing and straining

to see as you do

to feel as you do

but all i caught was a glimpse

of the grotesque

leering back at me

with a casual sneer

and i realize

in numbness

as i peer through

that in the mirror

the looking-glass

and the clouded puddle

steeped in southern rain

the reflection is mine.

and beholding

the Beautiful, the Terrible

a ruinous Truth

i give and i strive

to bleed and pour out

to sharpen my will

to fill out my senses

to bring heart and mind

into one accord

and where fear may reign

bring Love subversive

to dissolve

and bear away the dross

where waves and particles and molecules

collide

interacting, shaping

and changing the composition

and the very fabric

of you

of me

and colors, once indistinct and imperfect

sharpen and blend and swirl

until everything is new

and whole

and full

and all reflects You.